Saturday, November 8, 2008
Ever have that feeling that you aren't in your skin? It's just a vessel you are halfway in and a step out?
It took me an hour to look through what seemed like every movie in the video store and I settled on Harry Potter and Persepolis. A simple task such as opening the mailbox turned arduous and frustrating- the jamming of the key into the slot, the slow and jagged turn and the sour disappointment when to no avail, there was not a single piece inside. It could just be the aftereffects of drinking heavily the night prior that put me in a lethargic state, but even on days where I've had enough sleep and enough espresso to bring us into a new industrial age- it just doesn't work and nothing makes it better.
These kinds of days, which I imagine most people have, are the worst. These days also put more pressure on you to stay in that store and actually pick something because the shopkeeper has been waiting on you to pick that goddamn movie. You wanted a Best Picture and instead settle for mediocre and absurd. What exactly gives us these expectations of greatness? When do we realize that sometimes the actions we take are meaningless in the grand scheme of things?
While I am a happy person, it bugs me that these decisions, which have on impact whatsoever frustrate me more than leading a team on a project or a life-altering decision? Why do we (or maybe just me) get so hung up on small details?
I can't answer this and I won't attempt to because to try would be like imprisoning an elephant with only some yarn. I don't even get the metaphor I just wrote. You probably don't either and this posting is a complete rant. But anyway, hopefully, you can relate to this feeling and maybe I've made you aware to it so you can actually do something with it and get back to me. In the interim, I'm going to watch Order of the Phoenix.
Today I won't be a Cobbler. By this I mean I can't give you a proper mission so I'll leave you with an arbitrary task that might help you if you feel like I do. I got this off my magnet from New Orleans.
Make Bread Pudding:
1 Loaf day old bread 1/2 cup raisins (optional)
2 TBs. butter 2 TBS Vanilla
4 Cups Milk 1/2 TSP nutmeg
3 Eggs 1/2 TSP cinnamon
1 Cup Sugar
Preheat oven to 350F
Butter a 13"x9" baking dish. Break bread into chunks and pour milk over bread.
Break into smaller bits and the bread absorb the milk. Then Beat the eggs and sugar together until smooth and thick. Stir in raisins if you are using them along with vanilla, nutmeg, and cinnamon. Then pour the mixture over bread and combine. Pour bread into baking dish. Place dish into larger pan filled with 1" of water. Bake 1 hour or until knife inserted into center comes out clean.
Clean dishes immediately because after you enjoy you are just going to want to veg out in front of the television with your belt buckle off a few notches.